Center Myself
This morning I got the news. My grandma died last night at around 2am. She went into the hospital the night before, and the doctors didn’t think she’d make 24 hours. She made it 27. Cancer is a hell of a sickness. But of course we all knew it was coming. You can’t smoke for 50+ years and expect a happy ending…
Luckily one of my friends was gracious enough to come stay with me last night, and I am so grateful to her. I think last night would have gone a lot worse if I was alone. So kudos to her :]
Now comes the difficult task of adjusting to a life bereft of someone important to me. I know that the upcoming holidays are going to be the hardest, because for as long as I can remember, she’s been there; Making a Thanksgiving or Christmas dinner, meting out advice and chastisement in equal measures, and just being my little old grandma. It’s going to be hard but I know I can do it. I’m glad that she has passed beyond the pain and won’t have to suffer any more. I’m going to be strong for my family, my friends, and especially for myself. Ganbarimasu!
bereft is a good word. there i go mumbling about creative writing class again…
<3 kono tabi wa domo…. ;-;