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So I’ve discovered this group of people on the internet. They call themselves the Nerdfighters. It’s basically a group of interesting, smart, nerdy (NOT A BAD THING!) people that like to have intelligent conversations and want to have a connection with others like them. It’s a pretty cool thing in my opinion. Especially since it helps the younger people who feel different or who don’t fit into the “popular” crowd. I had a group of friends when I was growing up who were like me, but sometimes that’s not available. Anyways it’s sort of fun and silly and I’m enjoying hanging out and talking to these people. Nerdfighters!

With the annual technical career fair just over, and everybody talking about internships and graduating, I’ve had a lot on my mind recently. I really need to make an internship happen this summer. But if I do an internship I might not be able to finish school on schedule and end up being here another year. Ugh. I need to get work experience. I’m afraid if I don’t get on the ball and make sure these things happen, It’s going to be hard to get a good job when I graduate. And then there is the matter of graduate school. I would really like to go and earn a Master’s Degree, but that will prolong school even further, and keep me out of industry where I can be making money and get my life going. I suppose that with a Masters I will be more marketable, so it’s not a bad idea. All of this and more is flying through my head as I try to figure out what I want to do and how I am going to get from where I am now to where I want to be in the future. So, I’m just going to say nankurunaisa and take it one day at a time. Things will work out somehow <3

There is something comforting in the touch of another person. Skin to skin contact. The sound of another person’s heartbeat. The warmth of another living body. I find these things to be very comforting. I like to snuggle and burrow as if I can take that warmth and wrap it around me like a blanket. And the smell. The intoxicating scent. These things feed an inner need that lays dormant and forgotten until I rediscover it. I suppose there are others like me. After all humans are social creatures, and I think many of us crave that connection with another person.